Sarah

New Year, New Journal

Sun, 29 Dec 2002 12:36:40 GMT

bubookittyfuck

I'm going to be writing under this name from now on.

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Sat, 28 Dec 2002 21:51:49 GMT

It is hard to be in the right state of mind. The reason I can't be in the right state of mind is because achieving the right state of mind requires the right mindset!! Therefore I'm in the perpetual wrong state of mind.

FRUSTRATION ENSUES

Wed, 25 Dec 2002 03:33:13 GMT

Je suis une porc. J'ai mangé toute la nourriture dans mon réfrigérator. Aprés que cet acte répugnant, je vais aller maintenant en bas et je vais manger du porc. Imaginez cela! Une porc qui mange du porc! Je suis une porc et une cannibale!

Tue, 24 Dec 2002 02:23:43 GMT

I had rented this foreign movie Ponette and it was sort of boring so I fell asleep at the tv. I wake up to rdbelcher walking in my front door. I showed him my mom's feng shui and he agrees with me that it is nutty and tacky. We decided to go and visit Lauren. She was not so much of a bitch. We actually had a lot of fun. We watched Trading Spaces and Spongebob Square pants. Ryan and Lauren have agreed to come to my party. Now I have a total of 4 guests on my list. I don't have any idea when this party will be. Between Christmas and New Years, I think. If anyone on my friends' list is somebody I know from Washington state, you are invited to my party. God I feel like I need to be out doing more activites while I'm here. I haven't even been to downtown yet. I should go see a play or go shopping on Broadway or something to make this vacation more exciting. Ok well now my parents are taking me out to have ribs. Mm mm!!

Mon, 23 Dec 2002 01:17:32 GMT

I did not get black leather pants but something even better. I got tan suede pants from arden b. for christmas. I also got a comfy arden b. sweater. Thesse are the only arden b. clothes I own. They are the best clothes I have now and I treasure them much-ly.

Today was pretty uneventful. I went to see Maid in Manhattan with my mom. It was cute. I tried calling Melissa but nobody was home, and Cindy's phone was disconnected. I am not about to look up Bryant's number because that is too much effort to be spent on Bryant. So I feel like my friends here are now nonexistent. I need to call Rachel, Kevin, and Scott. I don't really want to call Lauren. Kelly says she will come over sometime to see all of my mom's feng shui. My mom is a nut. I am also supposed to have a party sometime but that would reuire calling people. OOH OOH. So my dad says he can get my keyboard fixed for $20. This means I won't have to keep inventing words like "reuire" and "uestion" and "realise" and "elisa" anymore =)

I am alive.

Sat, 21 Dec 2002 19:24:31 GMT

I took 3 ativan and I was pretty worry-free while boarding the plane. Kelly told me very funny stories to keep my mind off of the flying. We were hit on so many times by guys passing by. The guy at the metal detector said Kelly didn't have to take her sweater off. Then the security gaurd on the other side said "No, she can take her sweater off." And grinned. Then I was sitting and reading "More Bushisms" and this old guy comes up and says "So, what are you reading??" Clearly I don't want to talk since I'm reading. We got on the plane and the take off was rough. I yelped and said "oh fuck." It was scary. Kelly held my hand and put her arm around me. That did make it a little easier ;) When we got to Chicago and were waiting to board the second plane, I wasn't really worried either because I was used to being on a plane by that time. We watched Bring it On for awhile but then my computer ran out of batteries. So Kelly then told me about how she was at this sports club last night in the hot tub, and this 80 year old man commented on how her body was very well maintained. He asked her how she did it and she said "animal sex" hoping to scare him off. He then kept talking and said "That sounds like a workout." lolol ewwww. After we got off the plane we couldn't find our parents. They were eventually found waiting for us in the wrong part of the airport. We, at the time, were wearing fake lip rings from Claire's. We freaked them out pretty well. My dreads, to my dismay, my mother likes them. I was hoping to scare her. But she thinks they're "spunky" and was very pleased. We went to dinner and I went outside for a smoke. She didn't really nag me that much for it. My mother is growning up.

So I'm home now. My cat doesn't remember me and quite frankly I am very wierded out by seeing him. I am not used to his face, I am used to the faces of Zoe and Quigsley. He just looks very strange and foreign to me. My mother has re-arranged my room yet again. Good lord. Oh and there are comfortors draping the walls of our house. Are they suppposed to be feng-shui compliant tapestries or somehting?? They just look silly. Ok, I'm going to go and get ready to go to Bellevue Square. My mother is buying me my Christmas presents. She's getting me black leather pants and a pair of shoes. She was disgusted by the smell wafting from my Rocket Dogs so she slapped shoes onto my christmas list under the condition that I would throw away my rocket dogs. I am sorta pissed because those are the best shoes I currently own. I asked her if I could just wash them and she said they were done for.

I also have to get some wax for my dread locks so that they will stay in. Right now they are half falling out and they look sort of bad. I have to wear them in a ponytail to go out in public. I do realize that after I get tired of these dredds my only option will be to cut my hair off short. Well then it just looks like I'll be keeping these dreads forever because fuck if that's going to happen. Well I guess I could do it and just wear a wig. Or I could not dred the part that's growing out so when I do cut it I won't have to cut it that short.

New Hair

Fri, 20 Dec 2002 11:26:03 GMT

Do-it-yourself dreds take fucking forever. Well at least I have made myself so tired that maybe it will be easier for me to knock myself out on the plane.

Bushisms

Fri, 20 Dec 2002 00:25:58 GMT

"I was raised in the West. The west of Texas. It's pretty close to California. In more ways than Washington, D.C. is close to California."

"I know the human being and fish can co-exist peacefully."

"I want each and every american to know for certain that I'm responsisble for the decisions I make, and each of you are as well."

"I think if you know what you believe, it makes it a lot easier to answer questions. I can't answer your question."

"Families is where our nation finds hope, where wings take dream."

"One of the great things about books is sometimes there is some fantastic pictures."

"It's clearly a budget. It's got a lot of numbers in it."

"I don't read what's handed to me."

"The woman who knew I had dyslexia- I never interviewed her."

"The bob jones policy on interracial dating, I mean I spoke out on interracial dating. I spoke out against that. I spoke out against interracial dating. I support the policy of interracial dating."

"If affirmative action is what I just described, what I'm for, then I'm for it."

"I mean there needs to be a wholesale effort against racial profiling, which is illiterate children."

"It is not Reganesque to support a tax plan that is Clinton in nature."

"It's your money. You paid for it."

"They want the federal government controlling Social Security like it's some sort of federal program."

"I think we agree, the past is over."

"I'm gonna talk about the ideal world, Chris. I've read- I understand reality. If you're asking me as the president, would I understand reality, I do."

"This is what I'm good at. I like meeting people, my fellow citizens. I like interfacing with them."

Thu, 19 Dec 2002 17:48:39 GMT

I am fucking terrified. I leave on a plane tomorrow at about one thirty. I fly all the fuck to Seattle!! I'm flying United!! I feel so dreadful about this. Plus, the ativan I took last night was barely even strong at all. I'm going to have to take two for the flight. I have my ativan and I have my Kelly, but that doesn't matter if the ~~plane crashes!~~ I am hyperventillating (SP?!?!).

LOL

Thu, 19 Dec 2002 08:43:20 GMT

Last night I dreamed that Kelly got the link to my journal and started reading. It was hillarious!!!

So anyway, it looks like I'm going to be getting a roommate for a month or two. That's $425 less spent by me a month. Even if zaynah only stays for a month, it would really help me out. She will also be a good roommate. She is cool, not disgusting or annoying in any way. She is a lesbo so we can obsess over chicks. Omg we just watched this cheesy lifetime tv movie and were crying. So we are also both biiig nerds. We will do great =)

Wed, 18 Dec 2002 22:46:22 GMT

The nurse I saw told me to take an ativan to test out before I take it for my flight on Friday. I just took it. I'm scared. I hope I don't have any hidden allergies I'm not aware of or heart conditions or brain abnormalities that will cause something to go horribly wrong.

Wed, 18 Dec 2002 07:13:36 GMT

Bianca says that my anti-depressants are making me an automaton of the Capitalist system. I don't really feel like an automaton. I'm still a depressed and obsessive fuck. I have still kept my creativity and eccentricities though. But nonetheless, I'm thinking of quitting them just the same.

Sarah's Lesbian Movie Ratings

Show me love (Fucking amal):
***** - movie
** - sex action*
**** - eye candy
**** - sad tears
***** - happy tears

When Night is Falling
**** - Movie
***** - Sex action
***** - Eye candy
* - Sad tears
*** - Happy tears

High art
**** - Movie
*** - Sex action
***** - Eye Candy
**** - Sad Tears
** - Happy tears

The Truth about Jane
**l/2 - Movie
** - Sex action
** - Eye Candy
***** - Sad tears
***** - Happy tears

Boys Don't Cry
***** - Movie
** - Sex action
** - Eye Candy
***** - Sad tears
* - Happy tears

Gia
***** - Movie
***** - Sex action
***** - Eye Candy
***** - Sad tears
*** - Happy tears

Better Than Chocolate
** - Movie
*** - Sex action
*** - Eye Candy
** - Sad tears
** - Happy tears

Mulholland Drive
***** - Movie
**** - Sex action
**** - Eye Candy
**** - Sad tears
** - Happy tears

aimee and Jaguar
***** - Movie
***** - Sex action
***** - Eye Candy
***** - Sad tears
*** - Happy tears

Go Fish
** - Movie
* - Sex action
* - Eye Candy
* - Sad tears
* - Happy tears

Kissing Jessica Stein
**** - Movie
** - Sex action
** - Sad tears
*** - Happy tears

It's In the Water
*** - Movie
*** - Sex action
* - Sad tears
*** - Happy tears

*Sex action = quality≠quantity

Mon, 16 Dec 2002 16:43:18 GMT

Maybe I should think about going into the business of Casting Directing. I mean, I obviously have good taste in actors and I can tell when a show sucks and which actors are making it suck. I watch way too much tv and movies. I could use that toward being successful at a job =D I am also a nice and friendly person and therefore I would probably be successful at networking. These are just idle thoughts. If I was serious I'd say I was being flighty, but I'm just thinking.

Late night web surfing :)

Mon, 16 Dec 2002 06:25:01 GMT

Sun, 15 Dec 2002 21:27:20 GMT

I just wrote Eliza a fan letter. I have moved up one step on the ladder of teeny bopper. But that doesn't matter. I want Eliza to have this fan letter in which she will be informed that she is sexy and kicks ass.

awwwww.....

Sat, 14 Dec 2002 18:10:21 GMT

Show me love (Fucking amal) was very very very good. This movie is a story about the cutest couple in the world. With an added bonus, I could really identify with "agnes." Well, except agnes gets the girl. *sigh* this movie has made it into my top 3.

Does that inspire you?

Thu, 12 Dec 2002 15:06:09 GMT

Last night I spent 2 hours cleaning my apartment. It is now downgraded from a total sty to only mildly embarassing. I must have it clean by l:45pm. The object of my ~~obsessions~~ will be coming over.

Not to worry

Thu, 12 Dec 2002 02:17:34 GMT

:o]

>:o|

Thu, 12 Dec 2002 01:13:58 GMT

Not only has The Princess Diaries been lost. I have just tried to play Bring it On and it is scratched!! I want my Eliza...

>:o[

Thu, 12 Dec 2002 00:57:50 GMT

I have misplaced my copy of The Princess Diaries.

Well phuck, now what am I going to do????

Wed, 11 Dec 2002 23:49:28 GMT

I have submitted:

4 teacher reccomendations (2 are required)
My apps & essays
My official transcript
Graded writing sample (not required)

To submit:

Highschool transcript
Sat score
Financial aid forms

I will have it all done by Jan. The apps aren't due till april l. They best accept me yo.

Wed, 11 Dec 2002 07:57:33 GMT

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Computer Wizzes Hellllp

Tue, 10 Dec 2002 15:03:48 GMT

If you are filling out a form (online) and you are marking those "radio button" type multiple choice things, how do you undo your marking once you mark it?? The only way that I see is to check another one instead. But I can't have any of them marked. I just marked one by accident. Now I have to choose between being a US Permanent resident and an international student. I am an american citizen dammit!!!

El-e-va-tion!!

Mon, 09 Dec 2002 15:07:19 GMT

Everything is done and things are good.

Oh my. I don't remember if I've told you this dream before or not. I always dream that I can fly. It's not the type of flying where it just seems like some big fantasy where I'm floating with these imaginary wings. It's like, every time I do this I get some sort of idea that I can fly. I remember that I have flown before and that's how I know what to do. I have no wings or anything. It's just that I know this undiscovered secret or something that if you flap your arms in a certain way- you can fly!! In my dreams, nobody but me has figured this out. Often, I do not understand how it is possible that I am flying. And it isn't some big fun thing like a superpower or anything. It's just that I know how to fly. It seems normal. There was this one dream where I used my flying abilities to escape the Nazis in Germany. Then there was another dream where I was at my old elementary school playing wall ball, and the wall ball accidently got stuck on the roof. I rescued the wall ball. I remember yet another dream in which I was walking with Erin and Anna and I told them I would be late to class so I flew to class.

A bit odd, yes. But it's just strange. This is really my only recurring dream. What does it all mean!!

Essays Schmessays

Mon, 09 Dec 2002 10:08:16 GMT

I think some of my best and most inventive writing comes at 4am when I've had 3 energy drinks and 2 cappucinos. Two down, one to go. w00t. I'm sooo happy that Sparknotes covers Plato's Republic.